A blog about the code of life

i tell myself that i am no good with emotions.

that i cannot possibly help another soul feel better because i am alone hurting.

but the more i reach out the more i want to be alone. the more i’m alone the more i want to reach out.

why.

who stole my innocence?

why.

who is going to replace my broken heart?

why.

who will hold me and tell me it is all going to be alright?

why.

who is going to stop me and put me in place and show me the light of path and direction?

why.

i gave those questions and answered them for another person, i gave you all of me. you had me and i was yours. when the road was rocky and i then needed those questions answered, i learned i was way more alone then i initially thought. i then, became the person who is reading this, i was scared.

fear of it all. judgement. harassment. rejection. i was the rejected. i was forced in and forced back out just to be pulled in and shoved right back out.

but the only one scared of me was…me.

so if i am to face my fears as to conquer them…then it is time..

so i tell myself i can.

i tell myself i will.

i tell myself to stop telling myself. and i. just. do.

when it gets hard. i remind myself i am worth it.

when i am alone, i remind myself they are the ones losing. not me.

because i am me. and who i am is enough. because it’s all that i am. and whomsoever shall say otherwise, can leave and never return.